Miracles, disasters, and dreams come true??

    I haven't forgotten about this blog. So much has happened over time that I was kind of overwhelmed and didn't know where to start and how to put into words what has happened.
    Current day (February 2017), I am in an amazing home about half a mile from the beach. Cape Cod is beautiful, small and quiet, for now. God has led me here to accept an awesome job offer in Interior Design! I'll catch you up on that a little later.
    I am supposed to be nursing a headache but I was overwhelmed with urge to share some things. These are things God has brought me through, away from, and guided me towards.
    Imagine me, 19 years old, no longer a virgin, drinking every so often with friends to the point of not being able to function. Doesn't sound familiar? That's because it was my well hidden secret. I know I know, scandalous, right?! Now imagine that 19 year old searching for something she didn't really know existed. God brought people into my life who rearranged my thinking, believing, and desires. If He hadn't have found me at 19 wandering through my short life lost and stupid, I could very much be an alcoholic today. When I drank, it wasn't to take a sip and giggle for the rest of the night. I drank to forget, to not be myself, and to fall over drunk within the hour. If God had let me get to 21 (legal drinking age) it would have been very hard for me to turn around since I could legally buy it. 
     God chose me at 19 so it would be easier. It wasn't easy though and being on the straight and narrow has been very hard, nobody is perfect and neither am I. Wanna know what age I had my first experience with alcohol? 14 years old! Something I am not proud of! I was a D.A.R.E. kid that won the essay contest about why drugs were bad, I still I have my metal, I loved that program but I let influences get to me and continued to be influenced for five years. Five years of drinking (getting drunk) every so often. All before I was even legal. Looking back I am disappointed in myself but so very thankful for the overpowering positive influences that brought me away from that life style. 
     So theres my secret past. Obviously since I haven't written in a long time, I've graduated from Sinclair with my Associates in Interior Design. The worst part has been waiting to put it to use. I've worked here, I've worked there, I've worked anywhere but in Interior Design. I am currently in a super easy mindless job that is rough on the body job that pays well and isn't satisfying. 
     One day, I got the urge to search far and wide for an interior design job. After searching and emailing, searching and emailing I found an ad for a design studio searching for a sales girl and the title said Proverbs 31 girl wanted. BINGO!! A christian company wanting an interior design/ detail oriented woman. Where in the world was this dream? Cape Cod, a place I had only heard of and never had two thoughts about! Now here I am ready to accept the job and move to this beautiful coastal town in Massachusetts. 
     What else has happened in the last 3 years? (its really been 3 years?!) well there was a boyfriend and a breakup. So thankful that didn't last. There have been short trips here and there like Nashville and North Carolina. I've gotten so much closer with God and continue to grow closer everyday. There have been heartbreaking deaths, almost too many to count but I know I'll see them again in Heaven. 
     You know, God just became number one. He is always there and to see proof that he is working in my life is such a blessing. I'm thankful to be his child, cherished and loved. 
     I'll end it here with my absolute favorite verse. Good night and always #stayhappy

He says, "Be still and know I am God, I will be exalted among the nations, I will be exalted in the earth." Psalm 46:10
When life gets tough just BE STILL!

So, I wrote all of that over 6 months ago in February, 2017. It is now October 1, 2017. I moved to Cape Cod, my car packed full, my bicycle tied to the top, Charlie riding shot gun and my GPS taking me on a 16 hour journey through 5 or so states to the East coast. I am still here and its still beautiful, however, I am NOT in working in interior design and that first job did not work out and I am ok with that. I am still waiting to find my place in this world. In the meantime, God continues to look out for me. He has given me seasonal job at a local home and garden store that is still family owned 130 years later. I am going to a great church and through that church I found my family, the people who rescued me from failure and have given me a beautiful room and my own parking spot.
I encourage you tonight to think of several things you are thankful for. Although I am still not working in Interior Design and somedays I am so confused on what to do to make myself better, I know God is working ahead of me and opening up my future.
     I've been inspired to write more lately so I am hoping to get back into this blog!
Again I leave you with great happiness, positivity and hope to continue despite any hardships.
#itiswellwithmysoul